-Bored AND Excited?

I didn't know you could be bored AND excited at the same time. I'm sitting here at work, bored shitless. There's not really any traffic coming thru the shop, so I'm more or less sitting here with my thumb up my ass. I did all the work I was supposed to do, did a little straightening up, but unless peopel come in for parts and shit, I ain't got nuthin; to do. So, I'm bored. But I thinking about my new ink. I'm excited to get it. Something primal in me can't wait for the sting of it. It's gonna be badass. I know a ton of people are gonna be askign me what this means, what that means, what's this say, all that stuff. In some ways, that'll be pretty cool. I like explaining things to people. I guess I must have some teacher genes in me somewhere. But, on the other hand, I'm a bit leary about telling people about the personal things in my life. I've gone from "very comfortable" to "working without a net with raw emotions" in just a short time. What these past few months have taught me is unfortunate: don't let people get close, don't let them in. Ya see, I let Kristy all the way in. Well, as far in as she could safely go without getting her own background check done. So, for four years, I had that knowledge; I knew (or thought I knew) that thiat would be the last time I'd have to let someone get cose. Fast forward to today. I'm workign without a net, as I said. I know that I would love to meet another girl, do the family thing and all that. I'm no player, thats for certain. The only problem is finding a girl worth my time, worth the sacrifices you have to make. That might be the problem. Will I be willing to make that leap again? She'll have to be pretty damn special. I just don't wanna end up that guy with the great career and nobody to share life with. I talk to some of my friends (whose experiences range from "never been laid" all the way to "divorced three times") and, unfortunately they all have the same opinion of women:
-They suck
-They're only good for one thing, maybe two if they can cook
-All they do is spend your money
-They want to get their claws into you and milk you for all your worth
-They're all the same
-They're all bitches

I absolutely refue to believe a single word of that. I know that lots of people suck, lots of people are only good for one thing, lots of people live to spend someone else's money, lots of people dig their claws into you and rip you up, lots of people are the same and lots of people are bitches. But I refuse to believe that every girl is. I know I'm not like that, despite the things that I've seen and done. So, if I'm ok, surely there's someone else out there that's ok, too. I wonder if I'll bump into her, if I already know her, if she's on the other side of the planet, or if she's writing in her journal about me right now.

Fuck! I hate how this always ends up being about girls. No more of that right now. If it happens it happens, if it doesn't it doesn't. I'd love to spoil the shit out of some lucky girl, but enough of that talk.

So, classes are almost done, thank christ! This summer session has actually been pretty easy. I have all my papers typed up and ready to go and there are two tests next week, neither of which I'm worried about (althought that may be presumptious, as I haven't gotten my mid term grades back!). My training schedule is going well, I've lost some weight and my performance level is up a little bit, although I think maybe the stress of the past few months, the extra work outs, moving into a new place and the condensed school schedule have my immune system on the fritz. I'm actually looking forward to the month and a half or so off I have coming up, thought I'm a little worried I'll have too much time to think. Some might argue I already have too much time to think,, but more about that later. I plan on doing some traveling, hitting up Alabama, Virginia, DC, New York and driving back down. It'll be good. I figure that's abotu 2 weeks ro so on the road, so that should clear my head a little bit, if it isn't cleared up by then already. So, here's a recap:

-No chick, but
-new ink
-doing well in school
-looking forward to a long road trip
-still got my eye out for "the one"
sticking with my training