-I'm Easy!

...to love that is. Ask anyone...errr, maybe not ANYONE. Ask Ahi-Ahi, she'll tell ya how easy I am to love. Here are just a few things she's been whispering in my ear when the lights go low:

-You are very gentle
-You are handsome and wonderful
-You have gentle eyes
-You are easy to love

I know neither one of us planned to become involved. I guess we both figured it was just too complicated. She's going back to Japan soon. I'm just getting out of one of the worst relationships I've ever been in. Neither of us were looking for love. I figured Ahi and I would just be having meaningless sex for a few months and then we'd go our separate ways. I find relief in the knowledge that what Ahi and I have is far deeper than that.

It also seems clear that Ahi is planning to extend her stay here, if she can pull it off. I think that's great although I worry about her getting more deeply attached to me. She is such a sweet girl. Young, playful, and innocent. She reminds me of a different time, a time before I knew how the world really worked. I know in my mind that the odds are against us, but my heart is beginning to take over. I've always had that problem. Luckily I understand the weakness and believe me, Ahi, for me, is a weakness. I'm a bit of a fatalist, though and I find our situation beautifully tragic in a way. I know I'm already past the line, beyond the point where I can shut my heart off, beyond being cold. I'm doing my part to keep her here a bit longer. I'm simply enjoying every minute with her and for now, that's enough for me.